Mary + John
September 14, 2017
A Fall Family Session
Yesterday the hubby and I celebrated our third year of marriage together!! Now it hasn’t always been easy, in fact there are times it has been really hard, so hard I have felt like giving up. But those times of feeling hopeless and giving up are the times that my pride gets in the way. It gets in the way of seeing him how God see’s him. A child He loves, a sinner like myself, in need of grace, love and forgiveness.
Now I am mentioning this because often social media can hide the true messy versions of life. And like everyone else, my marriage isn’t perfect. It is full of joy, love and good memories. But is also full of hurt, grace and forgiveness. And now I want to say we had an amazing evening of laughs, hugs and kisses…but…I let my pride get the best of me once again.
My love language is words of affirmation, very much so! My husband doesn’t always know how to put love into words so this can be tough for him! Long story short, I was expecting a message along the lines of “Happy Anniversary gorgeous”, pretty simple right? Well…I didn’t get one…Now before you say, how dare he not say it! (Because trust me this is where I went! And selfishly I didn’t say it either!! I was waiting for him to say it, selfish I know. Did I mention I was a sinner in need of grace?) My husband is a loving man who shows me a lot of love and I am so grateful for that! He shows me love in ways I take for granted, so why I had to get so upset about this…well I have no idea…
Now I could have gone to him and told him how I felt and he would have apologized and everything would have been good! But me, being a sinner, I let it get to me. I let it brew and my emotions went where they shouldn’t have. So instead of a 5 minute conversation, apologies and hugs,
it was an evening of hurt, on both ends…
All this hurt because of what? Simply put, it was my pride. My pride didn’t want to accept his countless apologies, it didn’t want to accept that to him, we already celebrated our anniversary. It wanted to fester unneeded emotions. And it accomplished that because I was unwilling to forgive. Eventually we talked, we apologized (him again, even though he didn’t need to again), and we hugged. And we ended our evening feeling grateful for one another and cuddling in bed watching some Blacklist! (if you love criminal shows, this one is a must!)
Now you are probably wondering, why is this woman telling me all this? I want you all to know I am human, I mess up, I need grace and I need forgiveness…daily. And I think as humans when we can see someone be vulnerable, we can relate to them more. It is an awful feeling to admit when we do wrong, but it also shows we are all human. We are all sinners in need of love, grace and forgiveness.
Now aside from all that, I want to introduce you to this sweet family!! Mary and John have two beautiful little girls, who they love very dearly and it showed very much at their session!! And I mentioned the above, not just because it happened last night, but because I see this beautiful family. A family which I don’t know what they have all been through, but I can see the love they have for one another. And to me that is beauty! This life is so short and I believe the best thing we can do in this life is love. Love unconditionally, to show your spouse, your friends and family and the strangers all around you what a glimpse of God looks like.
Mission work starts in the home and it starts with love!